This is a new thing I found following up an IWSG person, and decided it would be a fun theme. Each first Monday of the month we answer a question on our blogs… see the list of participants at the end and join in if you’d like. You can get all the details here.
This month’s question is:
What are some New Year’s resolutions you’ve had in the past?
I stopped making New Year’s resolutions some time ago, because they were always the same, always to do with betterment, and I always failed. The usual one, like most people, is losing weight.
I can talk about losing weight for a long time. It is one of my expert subjects. I was about 49 when I decided that this seven-year yoyo cycle had to stop (my doctor agreed – it might put even more strain on my heart). My first diet was when I was fourteen. I could lose a stone (14 pounds, 7 kilos) in a month without too much trouble up until I was about 28. I even did a sponsored slim while at college, and raised a considerable amount for charity. But it always crept back on, partly because I love cheese, partly because I was interested in other things and meals become a necessity rather than something enjoyable, so food gets stuffed in without much thought, and then you feel hungry after since your mouth doesn’t remember eating. They say that some people’s brains have the ‘thirsty’ switch relabelled ‘hungry’ so they take the wrong input for their body’s needs. I think I’m one of those people.
Some time last year I totalled up the amount of weight I have lost over the years. It came to about 180 pounds. I could do with losing about 40 now – I’ve done it before, with Weightwatchers. I left Weightwatchers when some patronising group leader said “we must get back to our goal weight, mustn’t we?”. I left, never to return. My goal weight was probably ten pounds too low; my friends said I looked ill when I was on it, and new friends wondered what the hell I was talking about when I said I couldn’t eat something because I would put on weight.
If all this sounds familiar… well, it is a story many can tell. Nobody has really got to the bottom of the psychology of eating and obesity. The amazing Susan Powter is the best person I’ve read. Maybe it’s an opportunity for me to write another non-fiction book. But, you know, weightloss is a subject that just depresses me. And then I eat to make myself feel better.
Meanwhile, I keep writing – and you can enter the Goodreads Giveaway for book 4 of the Princelings series (which is a prequel, really) starting today!
More answers next month!